Pretending to find peace in a time of uncertainty.
It's been about 3 weeks now since the government has been advising everyone to social distance and stay home as much as possible. The more I stay home the more I realize how I have been gravitating to the comforts of home and my childhood. The only time I can remember staying home extensively in my life, when it wasn't summer vacation, was when I was sick. This is the idea. We're all "sick" or potentially infected so we need to stay home to stop the spread.
So what have I been doing? Eating Nutella and egg salad sandwiches. Cheerios and pancakes. Watching Survivor and American Idol. Colouring and wearing pajamas all day. Basically I've been pretending it's the year 2000 and I'm 10 years old without a care in the world. Complete denial and distraction.
Except it's the year 2020 and people are sick, people are dying, people are loosing their jobs, their incomes. Everyone's lives are upside down. I can't sleep well and when I do sleep I have the most bizarre dreams I've ever imagined. ( I should start recording them ) . My friends and I are going through the waves, the fear of the unknown, but we are going through them together. I appreciate every person I can call and say hello to, check up on and then get checked up on as well. We are alone but we are alone together.
It's really hard to imagine what the world is going to look like in the next 6, 9, or 12 months. But I don't want to get there and feel like I wasn't able to find the silver lining in this all, that it is a time to learn, grow, and create. So here marks my words to the world that I use these coming weeks to bring more love, inspiration, and wonder to those around me.
My favourite quote this week is from the dear Vincent vanGogh.